I know in my last post, I mentioned how I'd be straying away from the baby-centric posts. However, I need to make an exception because of something that is weighing so heavily on my heart today...
As I write this, someone I know (details withheld for privacy's sake) is going through one of the most difficult trials they've most likely faced to date. After a long labor (2 days, people. Warrior Woman.) her child finally decided to come into the world. Since its birth, it has been diagnosed with a severe infection that has caused breathing issues and multiple episodes of seizures, and it's very life is currently hanging in the balance.
I used to believe that, as a new mother, there was nothing worse than leaving the hospital without your baby - not knowing how long before they'd join you.
That was my experience, and it was awful. I was lucky and blessed that it only took 8 days before she joined me at home.
Now, I know that there is something worse:
Leaving the hospital without your baby - not knowing if they will ever get a chance to come home.
No mother (or father) should ever have to go through this.
I don't know about the rest of you that have lil' uns out there, but tonight...when my almost-10-months-old (holy shit!,) teething child shatters the silence of the night at 3 am with her painful cries, I won't be cursing under my breath or rolling my eyes as a I peel myself out of bed...
I'll be thanking every star in the sky that the Universe saw fit to send her my way, healthy lungs and all.
Monday, July 11, 2011
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
Well, hello there...
The time that has lapsed between this moment and my last post has *almost* been as long as the pregnancy with The Beast lasted.
Blog Fail, J.May. Blog. Fail.
I could give a long schpeel about all of the ups and downs and major life changes that have prevented me from blogging during that time span...like: going back to the full-time job earlier this year, then quitting after 2 weeks, then starting a part-time job on the weekends just to make ends meet; a move from Chicago, IL to Louisville, KY, after miraculously securing a kick-ass new full-time job thanks to a random email from an old college friend; some major health issues in Sean's family that arose the exact same time Rose and I moved in the Spring, that will - unfortunately - be hanging around for a little bit. But the truth is, this is life.
Life is messy.
Life is hectic.
Life doesn't care about your blog.
The responsibility of finding and keeping a balance between it all is up to those who are living it (ie, ME) and, I'll admit readers, I've been doing a piss-poor job of it. My apologies.
In all honesty, while I may be rocking it out on the mommy front of life (others' opinions, not necessarily mine, and The Beast deserves more credit for this than I - she is pretty much the easiest, awesome-est baby on the planet...) I have been under-performing in a lot of other areas of life, and am starting this blog again - as my dear friends and future sis-in-law puts it - to hold myself accountable. Maybe airing my dirty laundry will incite me to take more action, and accept more responsibility for my inaction, all in the hopes of finding that balance that I've so desperately been lacking.
Meeting the Beast started out as a baby-centric blog, taking it's title from the moment Sean and I looked forward to for 9 (well,...8) months of coming face-to-face with the being we created.
But now, I think, it stands for more than that, as life itself has any number of "beasts" we meet and deal with on a daily basis: deadlines at work, paying the bills and still having enough to put away, some days it's just getting out of bed in the morning. This blog will, starting now, be making a conscious shift away from being so baby-centric, and become more all-encompassing.
That being said, yes I realize there is an entry that's been MIA: the one that wraps up the story of the Beast's birth. I promise I will not leave those of you (all 2 of you, that is :-) ) who have been reading it hanging - expect that before the end of the week....
Wow, that was considerably less painful than I thought.
Blog Fail, J.May. Blog. Fail.
I could give a long schpeel about all of the ups and downs and major life changes that have prevented me from blogging during that time span...like: going back to the full-time job earlier this year, then quitting after 2 weeks, then starting a part-time job on the weekends just to make ends meet; a move from Chicago, IL to Louisville, KY, after miraculously securing a kick-ass new full-time job thanks to a random email from an old college friend; some major health issues in Sean's family that arose the exact same time Rose and I moved in the Spring, that will - unfortunately - be hanging around for a little bit. But the truth is, this is life.
Life is messy.
Life is hectic.
Life doesn't care about your blog.
The responsibility of finding and keeping a balance between it all is up to those who are living it (ie, ME) and, I'll admit readers, I've been doing a piss-poor job of it. My apologies.
In all honesty, while I may be rocking it out on the mommy front of life (others' opinions, not necessarily mine, and The Beast deserves more credit for this than I - she is pretty much the easiest, awesome-est baby on the planet...) I have been under-performing in a lot of other areas of life, and am starting this blog again - as my dear friends and future sis-in-law puts it - to hold myself accountable. Maybe airing my dirty laundry will incite me to take more action, and accept more responsibility for my inaction, all in the hopes of finding that balance that I've so desperately been lacking.
Meeting the Beast started out as a baby-centric blog, taking it's title from the moment Sean and I looked forward to for 9 (well,...8) months of coming face-to-face with the being we created.
But now, I think, it stands for more than that, as life itself has any number of "beasts" we meet and deal with on a daily basis: deadlines at work, paying the bills and still having enough to put away, some days it's just getting out of bed in the morning. This blog will, starting now, be making a conscious shift away from being so baby-centric, and become more all-encompassing.
That being said, yes I realize there is an entry that's been MIA: the one that wraps up the story of the Beast's birth. I promise I will not leave those of you (all 2 of you, that is :-) ) who have been reading it hanging - expect that before the end of the week....
Wow, that was considerably less painful than I thought.
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